Finding Peace.

Sisters & Brothers,

I'm unsure if I ever knew what peace felt like. At 36 years old I think I can safely say that I've never been in a state of mind like this, ever. I go to bed each night and wake up each morning on fire, and it never gets old. 

I live a very contemplative life filled with reading, writing, prayer, and meditation and while it's not for everyone, it's definitely a life I love living in each and every day. Of course being a pillar for people in my life is also a large part of my happiness and I look forward to a future that I can be a pillar for even more people. Something is terrific about putting everything before yourself, making yourself available at all times for everyone and anyone that needs it. I'll be the first to agree that for those that knew me this is a significant departure from the Jeff you used to know but I'm 100% certain that this is the Jeff you always knew as well, it was just hidden underneath some salty veneer.

This is my version of peace. This is my new regular. When I look back on the process, I quickly realize that this was a gradual life change that not only excites me but also terrifies me. This goes along with a much broader choice I've made (post coming soon) but understanding that this is where I'm supposed to be and the path I should be on has brought me an incredible amount of inner peace that I will be forever thankful for.

I think most people go through their lives thinking that they're at peace. And why wouldn't they? Their bills are paid, they have food on the table and things that make them "happy." Who wouldn't like that life? But I challenge you to sit still and contemplate whether all of those things are really what makes you happy and at peace or is it something else? Do those things light a fire inside you and make you smile or just feel content? I'm not saying it's wrong for these things to make you happy, after all, we're entirely different. However, what I am doing is challenging your ethos in what actually makes you happy and at peace in the hopes that maybe you'll take a more in-depth look into your soul and find something you didn't know existed. I've been down that road, and it's been beautiful, exciting and terrifying. 

So what are you waiting for? What sets you on fire?