I'm a 36 year old IT Manager at a University in Providence, RI who is currently discerning a priestly vocation.

Grace

Grace

Your worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God’s grace. And your best days are never so good that you are beyond the need of God’s grace.
— Jerry Bridges

Brothers & Sisters,

I can distinctly remember times when I was flying so high emotionally that I thought I was over and above any kind of need. How wrong I was! I can also remember times where I didn't think I had anyone to turn to. Wrong again my friends, wrong indeed.

At some point in the past year, I fully realized that I'm never alone. I've always had God there for me no matter what the circumstances. Whether He is slicing me a piece of humble pie or helping lift my spirits up during a rough patch, I know that He is right there with me.

I would often get caught up in myself and unable to see beyond these stained glass gates that I had set up for myself. It made it impossible to understand that I was flying far too close to the sun and the same went for when I was wallowing in my own pig stye. Had I the wherewithal and the knowledge to understand that I'm never alone I wonder how many situations would have turned out differently. Dwelling on the past is useless in my estimation, but it's definitely something interesting to consider and perhaps learn from.

The truth is we can never be on top forever, and we should always be wary of being knocked down a rung or two on the ladder of life. It turns out that we start to learn and become aware of these lofty ascents and become a bit more cautious when we feel the warmth of the sun a bit too much. The same can be said for when we feel like we're at our lowest. If we believe that we always have support, then we can never actually reach our lowest point. Sure, we might have an extended stay in the pig stye, but we'll always claw our way out of it with His help. Sometimes all it takes is a little prayer for understanding that there's a way out or that we need to have some humility. We learn from those moments, they become a part of us, and we live a much more rich and full life because of it.

You're never lost, you just haven't looked hard enough.

Yours,
Jeff

It's a long road

It's a long road

Work in Progress

Work in Progress