I'm a 36 year old IT Manager at a University in Providence, RI who is currently discerning a priestly vocation.

Lost in thought

Lost in thought

Ho! Ho! Ho! To the bottle I go
To heal my heart and drown my woe
Rain may fall, and wind may blow
And many miles be still to go
But under a tall tree will I lie
And let the clouds go sailing by
— J.R.R. Tolkien

Brothers & Sisters,

Ever find yourself staring off into space, and zoning out? Me too. It’s usually when I’ve been thinking about something for an extended period of time that this happens. Often in these times things start to get much more clear and I begin to understand what it is I have been dwelling on. It’s how most of these letters arrive to you each day and how most of my other longer form thought is derived. I do not think I could compose anything longer than a few sentences without this period of slowness and silence. Sometimes I come out of that space with more questions than I had going in, and that’s ok because at least I have some action items to take along with me.

I firmly believe that writing is incredibly important. I have dozens of journals filled with fragments of thoughts that I often reference when writing here. I remember looking back on some of the things and laughing or being perplexed by the thoughts I had written down. If anything writing has been able to show me my spiritual growth over the past year and I think that’s pretty interesting. In a special way writing gives us the snapshot to the deepest parts of our souls and emotions that we cannot capture with a picture. It tells us what we were thinking, what our struggles were, celebrates our joys, and helps us contemplate topics in a much deeper way.

I would encourage you all to pick up a journal and start writing, you never know what might come from it. You don’t need to share it with the world like I do, as a matter of fact most of my journaling is private as it is only pertinent to me and this journey I am on and is usually just an emotional check for myself when I need it. For me, the power of putting pen to paper has been a great way for me to balance what I keep in my head and what I am ok with letting go. This way my mind isn’t swimming with a million thoughts and moving at a mile a minute. It has freed my mind up to be able to slow down and focus on something in a way that I never could before.

Yours,
Jeff

Fall Apart

Fall Apart

Gone, Gone, Gone.

Gone, Gone, Gone.