I'm a 36 year old IT Manager at a University in Providence, RI who is currently discerning a priestly vocation.

My Faith

My Faith

The poet only asks to get his head into the heavens. It is the logician who seeks to get the heavens into his head. And it is his head that splits.
— G.K. Chesterton

Brothers & Sisters,

I was thinking today about why it is that I believe in God, have the faith that I do, find myself on the path I am on, and how I am ok with all of this. In a society that is growing further away from their faith how am I allowing myself to be drawn closer? When I was a kid I might have only believed in God because that is what I was told to do, the example I was following, and just another right of passage as a Catholic, in other words, it was just something I felt like I had to do because of those that came before me. I never really understood why or comprehended how Jesus worked through my life. Perhaps I was blind, or ignorant to His great works but it didn’t click.

Fast forward to last year when I finally slowed down enough to take a deep dive into the depths of myself and attempt to peel back the layers of this onion we call life, and faith. It was then that I started to realize that God was always present in my life and my hang-up was that I didn’t feel him at all times. Once I understood that I did not need to feel His presence 24/7 a lot of other things started to make sense. For instance, when I took a step down the path that wasn’t the one He had laid out for me I knew that much like a friend that didn’t want to walk down the perilous path with me He stopped and took a seat on the rock between both pathways. “I’ll be waiting right here” are the words I can imagine being said to me as I kept heading down that path. As it turns out He was and rejoined me, no questions asked as we went down the right way.

I am a believer because I’ve seen and felt the Holy Spirit work through myself and others. Belief in something (whether it’s God or not) is a beautiful thing. It anchors us and allows us to grow deep roots that keep us sturdy in even the worst storms. God just so happens to be what I believe in, and I know He will always be there for me. When everything else fades away, and I’m in the sunset of my years, I’ll be able to look back and say that at the very least one thing in my life was constant even though I denied it for some time.

Yours,
Jeff

Confrontation

Confrontation

You are good to me

You are good to me