I'm a 36 year old IT Manager at a University in Providence, RI who is currently discerning a priestly vocation.

Remembrance

Remembrance

Always give without remembering and always receive without forgetting.
— Brian Tracy

Brothers & Sisters,

Just over one year ago I came to a standstill on the path that I was on and turned around. As I sit here and recall the events of those first few weeks, I cannot help but feel touched at where I am now. Without the guidance from some amazing folks in my life that encouraged, listened, and assisted me over the past year I am uncertain where exactly I would be right now. I am quite convinced I would still be struggling to turn around on that path I was on.

I tend to split my life in half. The second half started with that first email to Father Mike and a bit of a waiting period to hear back but once those wheels started turning life was completely different. I often refer to my life before last year as my “past life.” My life where God was present and I blocked Him out continually and now a life where I allow Him into my life, give Him a place in my heart and made Him my anchor in all things. For some that might seem like a radical switch, and I count myself as blessed that it was not a remarkably tricky life change, but I would be lying if I said it was comfortable every step of the way. During those stressful moments I know I can turn to Him and those He has placed in my life to lift me up, hear me out, and walk with me.

I have often thought about whether or not I was spared from the path I was on. I think the answer is yes, I am uncertain where a few more years would have put me if I kept on. It isn’t something I dwell on very often as the gifts I have been given are the ones I chose not to squander and instead embrace and turn them into gifts I can give others.

Next weekend will make one full year of going to visit Father Mike, and hearing for the first time the voice in my heart welcoming me home. It is especially poignant to me that this is my first Lent & Easter back and entirely embracing my faith and how special it is that it falls on Easter. It gives me lots to think about, and I’m sure it is not a coincidence.

Yours,
Jeff

I am tired

I am tired

Confrontation

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