All in Contemplations

Tonight

On a chilly night precisely one year ago I arrived in Virginia not knowing what the next few days were going to mean nor was I expecting anything. All I knew is that one of my most favorite human beings offered me a place to stay in his home and a little help in restoring my faith. That man, now counted among my heroes, heard my very long confession (it had been 18 years!) and celebrated the holy sacrifice of the mass for me. I felt welcomed, loved, and ready to listen to this voice in my heart. What I would experience over the next few days was nothing short of amazing, and for that, I am forever grateful to you, Father Mike.

Perhaps

As we enter into this night and the Last Supper I cannot help but think about what was going through Jesus’ mind during these final hours of his life. Here is a man who knew he was about to be betrayed by one of his closest, and denied by another. Here is a man who had to see that he was going to die on the cross alone, shouldering the sins and burdens of the world and giving himself up for all of us. How can we take that single act of sacrifice and apply it to our own lives?

Toxicity

Sometimes it takes a look at the past to learn and understand the effect that toxic people in your life had on you or continue to have. While life is filled with lessons, trials, and tribulations, it is up to us to try and understand as much as we can.

Conviction

As someone who was drawn back from the brink of losing their faith, with no one around me to help me get back on that pathway I know what it is like to walk alone in the darkness for a long time. I understand that it isn’t pleasant and looking back on it now sheds new light on just how dark it really was. I thought my life was great, it was bleak. I thought I had everything I ever needed, turns out I didn’t have the one thing I needed the most, Him.

Crucify Him

Why would anyone choose the mob? Because it is an easy way out. It’s for the person that doesn’t want to make an effort in their life. It is for the person that is entirely content with being absolutely ordinary. We have become so obsessed with latching onto the latest news bite, tweet, Facebook post, Youtube video, etc., that we forget what our real purpose is on this mortal plane.

I am tired

Last week I spoke about feeling like a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. Today, even more than that day, I feel that way. I feel more tired than last time though. I have these blips on my radar lately that pick me up, make me smile, and help me to understand that life is great but the past few weeks have been trying mentally. The last thing I want is this to become a sob story and for you to feel bad for me. Quite the opposite in fact. I want you to know that it is ok to not feel amazing each and every single day.

My Peace

I have a weekly phone call with a dear friend of mine, and we dive into all sorts of topics and discussions, and it’s perhaps one of the times I look forward to the most each week. This past week he asked me something along the lines of what my peace is. What a question that was! I’ve been thinking about it ever since he asked me.

Useless

I firmly believe that if you cannot think of others in the actions that you take daily, then you are no better off than the rock you see sitting on the side of the road ready to be swept away or kicked a few feet down the street by some passerby. That notion might sound harsh but give it some thought for a minute. The idea that nothing or no-one else matters, but yourself is one that I, to this very day, cannot comprehend.

Fall Apart

You are the one who gives you second, third, and fourth chances. And while the world will flux and flow around us and exert itself upon us know that you are strong enough, wise enough, and thoughtful enough to understand just how much of that pressure you can take before you start to show cracks. Action is essential and needs to happen within our lives, or we find ourselves stalling out, and everything beyond that point will be harder to accomplish. Sure, you could float through life like a bump on a log but when you look back on everything you have done how are you going to feel? Our time here is but a blip on the timeline of forever. Why should squander that when we have the most amazing of gifts: the ability to start over.