All tagged God

Love not Hate

I’m often asked if people treat me differently now than they had in the past. It’s not as clear as that if I am honest. Some people that were in my life decided to see me as this person that has suddenly become “weird for Jesus” and have become withdrawn, I pray for them every day.

Tonight

On a chilly night precisely one year ago I arrived in Virginia not knowing what the next few days were going to mean nor was I expecting anything. All I knew is that one of my most favorite human beings offered me a place to stay in his home and a little help in restoring my faith. That man, now counted among my heroes, heard my very long confession (it had been 18 years!) and celebrated the holy sacrifice of the mass for me. I felt welcomed, loved, and ready to listen to this voice in my heart. What I would experience over the next few days was nothing short of amazing, and for that, I am forever grateful to you, Father Mike.

Conviction

As someone who was drawn back from the brink of losing their faith, with no one around me to help me get back on that pathway I know what it is like to walk alone in the darkness for a long time. I understand that it isn’t pleasant and looking back on it now sheds new light on just how dark it really was. I thought my life was great, it was bleak. I thought I had everything I ever needed, turns out I didn’t have the one thing I needed the most, Him.

Crucify Him

Why would anyone choose the mob? Because it is an easy way out. It’s for the person that doesn’t want to make an effort in their life. It is for the person that is entirely content with being absolutely ordinary. We have become so obsessed with latching onto the latest news bite, tweet, Facebook post, Youtube video, etc., that we forget what our real purpose is on this mortal plane.

Why

Why do you do what you do? What are your heart and mind telling you about why you’re alive and doing what you’re doing? When everything around you feels like it has crumbled to dust why do we persevere? What, at our very core pulses and emanates to everything around us and fuels our every action? Is all of this called a vocation? On some level, sure. Have you ever had the feeling that you’re not doing what you’re supposed to be doing?

My Faith

I was thinking today about why it is that I believe in God, have the faith that I do, find myself on the path I am on, and how I am ok with all of this. In a society that is growing further away from their faith how am I allowing myself to be drawn closer? When I was a kid I might have only believed in God because that is what I was told to do, the example I was following, and just another right of passage as a Catholic, in other words, it was just something I felt like I had to do because of those that came before me. I never really understood why or comprehended how Jesus worked through my life. Perhaps I was blind, or ignorant to His great works but it didn’t click.

How is your heart?

Ever since this prayer group has started, and I've started writing again, I've been getting sporadic messages from folks about their prayer life. It has been great to talk to people about prayer and strengthening their relationship with God. The one thing I've started asking people is how their heart is. While I'm a big fan of prayer, it's never enough to just carve out time in the day to pray without knowing what you're feeling in your heart.

Speak to Me Now

As this prayer group winds down and enters its final week the one thing that continues to ring true over all else is that one needs to open their heart to the Lord in order to full start to developer their prayer life. Aimlessly wandering through the motions, not believing or understanding what one is doing will result in endless circles in the desert of spirituality. Growing in prayer is increasing the desire to know Him on a much deeper level. Being present within this moment, accepting His presence, and giving Him full attention is the only way to receiving that special gift of love He wants to share with us.

Him

The majority of my prayer lately has been centered around God's love for us. I look around and see how broken we can be as humans and find myself asking how He could love us even when we turn our backs on Him? Almost immediately I find myself with the feeling of gratitude washing over me. The more I pray on it, the more I am sure that He saved me last year. Much like my father did when I was a child He put his foot down and let me know that He had had enough of my crap.