Life wasn't always the way it is now. I'd like to debunk the myth that I'm living in some glorious state of bliss. Am I happy? Yes, without a doubt. Have I always been happy? Not even close. I've had some fairly dark times in my life (I think we all have) and there were also some days that I felt like I was breaking under the crush of the endless waves of guilt, loneliness, dread, questions and sadness. I'd be lying if I said I didn't consider calling it a life.