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Love not Hate

I’m often asked if people treat me differently now than they had in the past. It’s not as clear as that if I am honest. Some people that were in my life decided to see me as this person that has suddenly become “weird for Jesus” and have become withdrawn, I pray for them every day.


As we enter into this night and the Last Supper I cannot help but think about what was going through Jesus’ mind during these final hours of his life. Here is a man who knew he was about to be betrayed by one of his closest, and denied by another. Here is a man who had to see that he was going to die on the cross alone, shouldering the sins and burdens of the world and giving himself up for all of us. How can we take that single act of sacrifice and apply it to our own lives?


Why do you do what you do? What are your heart and mind telling you about why you’re alive and doing what you’re doing? When everything around you feels like it has crumbled to dust why do we persevere? What, at our very core pulses and emanates to everything around us and fuels our every action? Is all of this called a vocation? On some level, sure. Have you ever had the feeling that you’re not doing what you’re supposed to be doing?

Lost in thought

Ever find yourself staring off into space, and zoning out? Me too. It’s usually when I’ve been thinking about something for an extended period of time that this happens. Often in these times things start to get much more clear and I begin to understand what it is I have been dwelling on. It’s how most of these letters arrive to you each day and how most of my other longer form thought is derived. I do not think I could compose anything longer than a few sentences without this period of slowness and silence. Sometimes I come out of that space with more questions than I had going in, and that’s ok because at least I have some action items to take along with me.

How is your heart?

Ever since this prayer group has started, and I've started writing again, I've been getting sporadic messages from folks about their prayer life. It has been great to talk to people about prayer and strengthening their relationship with God. The one thing I've started asking people is how their heart is. While I'm a big fan of prayer, it's never enough to just carve out time in the day to pray without knowing what you're feeling in your heart.

Sunday Reflection XIII

Whenever I take a Philosophy class and we get to the unit on Aristotle my entire body cringes. It’s not that I dislike the man in any way it’s just that for whatever reason it doesn’t speak to me and doesn’t interest me in any way shape or form. I’ve come to terms with that and understand that for the entire unit on Aristotle I’m just going to scrape by.


I wonder what someone gets out of my abstract thoughts especially these on proximity. It occurs to me that sometimes I just have broken fragments of ideas running through my head that I type and leave for you. Is that ok? Does that spark thought? There are often times I write these letters and find myself going back to them to continue the loop or close it on thoughts that I've had. Many times though I just find more layers of the onion to peel back and explore some more. For someone who likes to think deeply about things, I think life, love, faith, God, purpose, and happiness can be subjects that can be looked into endlessly. 

Sunday Reflection X

Yesterday we started to explore awareness in regards to the forces from the people around us that influence our lives. Today we'll explore that notion a bit more and dive into why we care what others think about us. The need and search for acceptance among humans is quite strong. I'd argue that at this present point in time it's easily one of the top things that humanity spends far too much time on.

Decisions always need to be made

How many decisions do you think humans make on a daily basis? Hundreds right? Many without thinking but some require much more thought, questioning, and preparation. On this, I think we can agree. How many renunciations do you think someone makes on a daily basis? For each decision made how many other paths aren't taken? I've been thinking about this for months and months, ever since I read Ronald Rohleiser's book: The Holy Longing.